Emptiness

                         I am falling in the dark … I cant help myself. I can not stand up in this darkness.  Whenever I am trying to stand up I fall.  Why do I keep falling? Because I am too tired. . I am  Kneeling in the dark.  I have no energy left in me.

As life went by I tried to solve the mystery of life. What is happiness what is what? Why do we live? As look back at my life I see  a lot of mistakes. I lot emptiness.  All of these mistakes I carried so far. But I can not do it anymore. All of these things are rooted inside me. Its killing me everyday.  I know  as we live 

               Painter: Fariha Zannat 

our life our mistakes, our regrets grow together. But  I know everything. But I can not carry all of these anymore. I lost the battle with myself.

All of these are killing me from inside. I need someone whom I can say everything. I  can lay out my life before her. I can share my pain inside me with her. May be that will give me energy to stand up in the darkness.. i need someone whom I can keep my head into her lap and tell her all the thingsi am not proud of, all the mistakes I did everything.   That will relieve me from the voice inside me which is dying. We will sit in night under the sky full of stars , we will talk about a;; the pain ,sufferings I went through.  I need her. Without her I will die in my own darkness.

                     I will want to listen her stories also. I will want to know about every mistakes she made in her life. I do not want her to succumb into her own darkness.  I want to be a part of  her life too. we both will free ourselves from our own darkness together.

 Do you ever feel  heavy in your hearth? Do you ever feel that you can no longer burden your mistakes in your life? If yes then congratulation. You are a human being. We all make mistakes in lives. Some are minor mistakes some are big mistakes. but life goes on. We keep going with all the mistakes with us. Some point in our life seek someone with whom we can share our mistakes ,our lesson our lives. Life feels very uncomfortable and unsafe if you have no one you can count on and share everything with.

But irony is its very hard to find someone whom You can share with everything. You can only share everything with the person who also share everything with you . It’s a two way street.

                     It’s so important to have someone you can talk to and understands you and helps you to cope with life. It’s a therapy in itself. If you already found someone like that you are among the luckiest persons in the world. So try to be the person  whom your partner can feel safe, can open up about life ,mistakes everything. Say to your partner : 

                                Come on now love, don't be naive

                    Lay out our cards and you'll see all my mistakes

                         Tell me things you've never said out loud

                           'Cause I want to know, I'm just a man